I am completely an utterly having a breakdown right now, I am going to go insane, My keyboard is going to hate the amount of typing I'm going to make it go through, And you'll suffer the uneventful existance of reading this blog!

Okay, let's start with how I entered linux, My adventure AAAALLLLL the way to where I am! RIGHT. here. (Which is using fedora linux with GNOME.)

How I entered linux

Linux this, Linux that, that's all I heared ALL the DAMN time, I am a CHANGED person from who I was, as a naive NORMAL PERSON, before I entered this STUPID linux stuff.

I started going into linux like any other person- as a tired person from the BLOAT and- performance??- yeah no I'm kidding, As you know, The year of the linux desktop is every single year. And so a trend started somewhat in the middle of 2025 where people were GLOATING, SPEWING OUT, absolutely GUAKING over how GREAT linux is, As a normal person would think, "Hmmmmm, yes, If they say all those (false) things that are make linux so great, then why SHOULDN'T I switch?"

Yes, Indeed what a NORMAL. PERSON. Would think.

I was promised that linux was easy to use, I was promised that linux is more secure, I was promised that linux works "with (almost) all the apps, except the ones that work against it.", And of course better battery life.

Genuinely. what. the. hell.

ALL of those things are wrong!- heh- they're ALL- WRONG! and they STILL ARE! but they're the reasons I switched!

in WHAT REALM ARE YOU LIVING!?

We, the linux users (ew), Are INSANE!, yes we ARE. WE SO ARE.

Linux just has "tiny issues", Yeah, totally frankentien!

Linux is NO- it's not- something a normal person should use,- NOT YET.

The moment I became a linux fanboy I regretted it! I hate it! I don't wanna go closer to that again!

Okay- ha- OKAY- listen- Linux has caused tremendous pain to me, I've been insanely embarrased, BECAUSE of linux, No- NOT because I'm just some SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE!, nope- NAH. uh-UH.

YOU- you. hear. me. out. right now.

I love my class, My teachers, my school. And I actually enjoy being in school, Because I actually have a good one, And a passion we have at my school is bassically making "presentation art", We, make presentations where we put hard work into it, Because it's fun, And it's just a great experience.

And in the end, We can show our presentations which is the best part, Sharing our 'art' with our friends, and teachers, and on the side sharing information.

I put hard work on my presentations, Like any other OS. But- the sharing part, (and this happened 3 or more times)- My laptop just-- COULDN'T figure out what the FUCK was going on, I had issues EVERYTIME, and it made my presentations- UNPRESENTABLE.

Software issues, OS issues, or I don't even know what happened issues!

Now- NO, I'm NOT just gonna move on, I want you to visualize, I worked on a project for WEEKS, Perfecting the visuals, the dialogue, Thinking what I could add, what could be missing, giving my heart and soul into the project, The day comes, I imagine how the presentation could go, What would happen after, just because of the insane amount of excitement I have.

I see other presentations, Enjoy every detail of their project...

And the teacher calls me, I take my laptop, meanwhile thinking about each slide of the presentation, Summing it up so it'll be easier to explain meanwhile walking to connect the HDMI port- and reality hit me.

I connect the HDMI port, And when I open the presentation, Go into presentation mode and-.................... the screens black.
It's not showing jack.- ANYTHING!

The entire class is looking, comfused, And my mind is swirling with what could be going wrong, Is the HDMI port connected correctly? Is the software the problem?- But I can't take class-time to trouble-shoot the problem- I visibly am comfused trying to say-- anything... about what's going on. And I just go "Skip me, I'll tell you when I can present."

But I don't fix the problem. I CAN'T fix the problem, Not with this amount of time.

So when the last person is done- I ask if I could send the presentation to my teachers computer.

And the entire class is just there. waiting, seeing stuff go on just becuase it is------------------ LINUX.

And as time goes, I switch OS's I switch desktop enviroments, apps, Each time I use that project I get new problems.

do you UNDERSTAND, why I'm so pissed?
And that's not the last of the problems I'm getting.

Now I'm here, I found an OS known for being for people who want things to "just work", fedora.
And I found a Desktop Enviroment that I want to "just work", GNOME.

Issues still arise.

I'll keep getting issues.

And because of linux, I don't trust my laptop to "just work" anymore.

......but I still use linux.

Why?


Why keep using an OS... that you don't trust?




Because no OS is trust worthy.

Windows' updates

Apple's intense data stealing, and ecosystem

This... might be the best place I've been in.

...

...

But the main reason?

This is my new safety bubble.

Infection

On gods earth.

ooouuughhh...

god........

ever since linux
I've gotten reccomendations that made me think about my data.

Privacy.

...

I've always acted mainly without thinking.

Algorithems moving me around

But algorithems made me think about... worrying about my data through the internet

About how "everythings a trap"

and I'm breaking.

my brain instinctually avoids anti-privacy things

but all I can say...

Is fuck. that. shit.

Ever since I started using linux I got reccomendations, I saw more people talk about privacy. MY privacy, Louis Rossmann, normal youtubers, and mainly.... linux. users.

I'm doing something I wasn't made to do!

I can't mentally take this, Thinking about privacy, thinking about the government, thinking about society, thinking about laws- I don't even know what juristiction is.

ALL of this, Isn't ME.

I think that's all I have to say, for this blog.

Thank you.